An Attempt.

Hi.

I really have no idea how to revive this little page right here. But it is essential that I start writing again because 3 months of on-off, mostly off, writing has caused me to rust. Badly.

So. Here's what happened in that 3 months. I won't elaborate on it, unless asked. It's kinda not something I wanna talk about since it involves my family.

- I got into a huge argument with my Dad, and it was really bad. It was the first time ever that I screamed at him, loud enough to wake the neighbors, flipped him off and provoked him purposefully by fabricating certain things. I loved my Dad. But I've come to realize that he wasn't as great of a man as I once thought he was. The next day, I packed my bags and left home.

- A lot of you have been speculating and I've never once confirmed this but yes, for the past 3 months, I've been crashing at Rei's. I intruded on his home, probably one fine afternoon. It's been so long, I don't even remember really. It was rude of me but I was homeless then.

- It was fun living with Rei. Like all couples, we have our ups and downs and all that stuff. Then I finally got to meet his friends, one by one and I'm very happy to be friends with them. They're a fun bunch to be with.

- I somehow managed to make myself nocturnal. For a good few weeks, I was like Ciel. I was always only hyperactive in the middle of the night.

- I've also gained a few pounds, from all the late night McDonald's & KFC we've been ordering. And also because of the potato chips Rei's been feeding me. I has liek a new fav food nao. Potato-dono.

- I've improved in my make up skills, I turned a boy into a girl. It was not easy to do. His features were very aggravating.

- I auditioned for a certain something that I will not disclose on until the results are out, 'cause I don't wanna jinx it. I'll most likely be let down though, realistically speaking.

- I had another photoshoot, titled ☆ ハチミツ [☆Honey] because of the lighting, with my ever favorite lovely photographer, Christina Keslie and the ever cute dollface, Heidi Kurumi. I've improved greatly. Pictures can be viewed here.

- I am also now friends with Channice.

- I grew. 2cm. I am now 5'8" ie 1.72m. *smug* That's the minimum required height to be a Model in the states.

- I finally moved back home a week ago, 'cause Rei needed to concentrate on his Finals that were coming up. But it's alright, I'm all good with my family now.

So that's what's been happening in that 3 months and there's probably a lot more that happened, but I can't remember. My memory's really bad, that's one of the reasons why I keep a blog and I'm happy to know that you guys periodically come here to relive certain memories from certain times through my words alone.

I'm thinking of doing a lot of things for this blog. One being changing my url. Color Injection's getting pretty old and has already lost it's original meaning. Another being changing my skin. As much as I hate using blogskins because it's very widely used among SG Teenage Bloggers, I admit that blogskins give me more room to be creative with as compared to blogger templates. Templates are pretty much fixed. And I'm not really keen on going into CSS codes just yet.

In an attempt to revive this page, and being very active on the internet, I shall try to write about my thoughts on a certain article I happen to come across or write an essay, in addition to blogging about my day.

But let me just rant for a bit here. I hate rollover advertisements that take up a quarter of your freaking tiny screen and you close it and accidentally rollover it again and the whole cycle repeats. I also hate advertisements that have sound in them, which is pretty much just a stupid html code embedded with a stupid YouTube video which should be flagged and taken down, reason being that it's annoying. I didn't get to celebrate my half-year anniversary achievement with Rei because I moved out and he doesn't even have time to have dinner with me. *sulk*

I have a shitload of stuff I could sulk, whine and complain about but I'll leave that for next time.

I'm kinda tired now, so I'm gonna go read Animorphs again and go to bed.

It still doesn't feel right.

I was writing a post on all that's happened and halfway I started tearing up.

I asked Love for a hug and was completely ignored.

It's understandable, he just woke up.

But I feel even more like shit now.

I WANT TO WRITE BUT GODDAMMIT I'M TOO TIRED TO.
There is a ton of stuff I want to do but the problem with that is there's too many, I have no fucking clue where to start and I end up not doing anything altogether.It's frustrating, it's pissing me off, it's just, FUCK!

Mental Block

Red: I wanna blog, I wanna blog. Baby, I wanna bloggggggggggg.

Rei: Just go ahead and do it.

Red: But I don't know how to start.

Rei: Well, you've forgotten how to. I know that feeling, it's like you haven't touched it for so long, you try to and you're at a complete loss as to what to write.

Red: But I do have something I want to write about.

Rei: Then yours is quite a different problem. My problem is always that I didn't know what to write about.

Red: I wanna share everything that's happened. It's tiring keeping it all in.

Rei: Then why bother what the world thinks? It's your life not theirs.

Red: I know, I know. Sigh, the day I start writing again, will be the day I stop caring about how others look at me.

Rei: How do you know people's opinions of you will change?

Red: I don't know, but neither do you.

Rei: I'm not saying they won't.

Red: They might, and I don't want to lose a coupla readers just 'cause I've changed and they don't like it.

Rei: You might've already lost a coupla readers, not because you changed but because you stopped blogging altogether.

Red: That's true. And usually at this point, I'd say, "Fuck what the world thinks." but that brings us to the problem of, how the hell do I start?

Rei: Just bring people up to speed and update them about your life. [Continues playing Tetris on brother's iphone.]

Red: [Facepalm]

Rei: Hmm?

Red: That's the whole problem, I don't know how to start to write about my life. Sigh.

Rei: [Continues playing Tetris, failing epicly] Gahhhh!

Red: [Sweatdrop] Thank you love, you've been very helpful.

I wanna write again, but I have to do things in chronological order, a bit of an OCD on my part, or so sez Rei, the God of Epic Failure At Tetris. I have so many things I want to do, I want to write about my family matters, that's the very first thing I want to write about. But I just can't seem to. This irrational fear, that you guys won't like how I've changed, is holding my back.

I also want to venture into doing Anime Review Blogs, my style. And I want to continue with my Talk Shows. I've been wanting to continue my Naruto Talk Shows, finish them and start on Kuroshitsuji Talk Shows. And I can't do all these until I write about my family matters.

Sad face.

Sigh.

A Dream Is Just A Truth Or Dare

I had a dream this morning, a rather enjoyable dream. However, I was awoken from my sleep at 6am, cutting my dream short. Grumpy, I got out of bed and dragged Rei along with me. [He had to get up for school, not me, and he's a huge bitch to wake up. BTW, Rei is in the IB Program, if you don't already know, and he isn't some shota from lower secondary. But that's a rather nice thought, isn't it? *Shotacon* ] Once he got ready, I turned towards him with sleep-addled eyes, I told him about my dream.

It was an Anime-styled dream, first that I've had that actually has me as the main female protagonist. The style was similar to that of Soul Eater. Why? Because I think I remember Death the Kid being there. Who wouldn't be able to recognize the 3 white stripes on his hair? In my dream, we were sitting on rocks in the vast sea of nothingness, or quite possibly a really misty lake, discussing about the antagonist and how we managed to evade her or how we can come up with ways to deal with her over one little comment I made a little while back.

I didn't think that little comment was much when I said it, and I don't remember it now, but the ever paranoid Death the Kid managed to think out various possibilities and solutions from that one little comment alone. Shocked and amused, I turned to my best friend, a faceless female in my dream, and told her, "I didn't think that was much when I told you." And this was where my dream stopped.

That was the most fun I've had in days, weeks, months.

That was what I told him. He turned away, clearly upset over that statement and went to wear his socks and pack his bag. "What's wrong," I asked and we attempted to talk things out. He told me, that he didn't want to see my face like that anymore, he said that was all it takes now to upset him. That face, that face with that small smile and those sad, sorrowed, empty eyes.

He's such an idiot.

- - - + - - -

Wow, okay, apologies, I didn't mean for the prologue to be that long. Here look at this picture for a while.

8D

Alright, I'll be frank. The reason why I'm still hesitating to blog about everything is because whatever that's happened may or may not change your impression of me. I don't want anyone to be disgusted with me and stop reading my blog because you've realized I've changed. I've definitely change within the timespan of a little over 2 months. A lot has changed.

I've lost a lot.

I remember what it was like to live without a care, to live each day having fun. It's depressing and ugly, what I've become.

Tell me, let me know, will you listen to what I have to say? Will you listen and withhold judgement? Will you continue to listen to what I will have to say in the years to come?

Will you?

Karma.

Goddammit, I gotta stop doing this. Writing, then disappearing, then writing again. Where the hell is the consistency?

But I'm ending everything now. I won't write about the blog war anymore 'cause, I feel sad for someone now. I feel sad for Channice.

Channice, I read your post. The good and bad dedications one. The one about me, I'm not gonna respond to it but I'd just like to say, that CTRL + ALT + DEL thing was on my blog in one of the blog wars posts. So there.

But your post to Amanda... I really feel sorry for you.

Kimiko Aki :
There’s both good and bad here .

I love you alot alot more now than 3 years ago , (: you have really grown up :D i just love making you laugh , seeing you smile . You’re also always there for me before you got into a relationship with Jun Hui . And thanks for protecting me from Devil, Ronald and Gerald. Muaxx.

But after you got to know Jun Hui , you changed again . You started talking to me lesser . You text me lesser . You , coming to find me , also decreased . Well , i dont know what to say but , we’re drifting if you cant see . Also , im always there to patch you and Junhui together whenever you both quarrel . So , this drifting thing makes me feel that you ‘wang en fu yi’ :/ sorry my words are crude but you know me , im straight forward . :/
know that i still love you looooooads , xoxo .

You were her new best friend after me and this is how she treats you once you've helped her snag Jun Hui? You even helped her get back together with him when they argued because as both their best friends you felt like you needed to do something and I can bet you, without your help they wouldn't still be together. Even if you don't want me or even need me to be, I'm on your side in this situation. The one thing I cannot stand to see is one person using another as nothing but a spare. I feel bad for you, truly I do.

I won't antagonize you anymore, but I'd like to say your English has definitely improved. Also, last long with your boy and have a good life.

I can't believe Amanda did that to you. Sorry. :/



But anyway, I don't wanna continue any longer. Channice has decided to let it die down, then so will I. It's not really in my nature to continue something like this when the opponent has decided to let it go. Besides, it'd just make me look sour.

So to everyone that's been reading, and participating in this overblown drama, I hope you had fun. Something like this won't happen again in a long while, I assure you. My only regret is not getting to know the other people who've participated. You guys seem like a pretty alright bunch. We could've went for lunch or something sometime, discussing how terrible the kids of today have become. You know the conversation can be endless when you talk about human stupidity.

And now that all these have ended, I'm gonna *TRY* to be more active here again. It's actually pretty hard considering how things are these days and trust me, work is not the issue here.

I promise I'll really write about all that's happened one day.

"Mai Name Ish SharShar &&& I Wan B Hannah Montana Wen I Gro Up!"

Okay okay okay I know I'm 1 week late in my response to the "blog war" and I really couldn't help it. I don't MIA a lot from the internet unless something big happens with the exception of last time. That was just 'cause I was lazy. This time round, something rather big happened between my family and I and well, things became very complicated.

Before I continue to talk about everything that happened, because I believe all of you have a right to know why I wasn't able to continue entertaining you, let me just reply the tags first. I really don't want to do this anymore. I have other things that deserves my attention and concern more than this.

[On the bus ride home from work, I suddenly thought of the tags that I have yet to reply and I gave a disgusted look and dreaded returning home.]

But if you guys continue, I'll continue playing with you.



Tags Replied:

けいぎ: Hi Red, i have come to tag you.. Hahas.. I hope thing are fine alr.. (: I'm now at my friend house reading at ur blog post.. Cant stop laughing all the while.. :X

Haha nah, everything isn't fine yet. Glad you had a good laugh out of it.


Tesun: i think you misunderstand me. yes, there r ppl who r not related to the issue tagging. however, the act of tagging causes them to be noticed. this constitutes involvement which justifies the possible
Tesun: lashing out by any of the mentioned idiots to said people who chose to tag, including me. i'm sure the teacher is at fault for not doing a gd follow up on the student but perhaps said student was the
Tesun: only bad egg. with accordance to giving the benefit of the doubt, i would advise to leave off the teacher. sry for the rant. personally, i prefer the phrase 'i'm pooped~' :P
Tesun: oh, i would like 2 mention tht this thought process is completely natural, not something that happened because i went 2 JC. i had it since sec sch while being terribly frank, my greatest failure.

Two words: Well Said. Your tag has made a very good point. I withdraw my comment on "Channice should sue her English teacher on the grounds that s/he has failed to teach his/her student well."



Alice: Great Job! And the Saga continues! HAHA!

Terribly sorry for the late reply. I may have unknowingly stopped the war myself by not responding for a week. But if they continue to reply, rest assured, I will too.



Reminisce: Wow, is the war over? o.o

I don't know really. If they don't reply then it is I guess. If they do, then it isn't. I'm not the kind to back down. But if she still types like a fucking chimpanzee on crack, then I'm out.



CHANNICE: Th HIT CTRL ALT DEL wasnt even about YOU -_- gawd , who's blowing things up nao? zzz .

You got it off my blog, dumbass. You probably didn't even know the whole procedure until I pointed out Amanda's mistake. Gawd, where the hell did you store your brain? In the freezer? *Rolls eyes*



CHANNICE: You said you SEARCH then CLAIM right . Here's th ''bestfriend'' story. HE was th one started calling me BESTIE for no reason so i just called back . Get this right aite . -_-
CHANNICE: everyth is HE started it . so please , dont put it as if its ALL on my head.

Wow. The "bestfriend" story is that short? Wow. How much more fail can you people get. And now you just sound like you're pushing all the blame to him. Channice, you're 16. Stop acting like you're 6. There is a limit to being immature and god, even without me saying it, you've been pushing it.

The reason why it's all on your head now is because you just had to blow up on ONE fucking statement. You made yourself to be the center of attention when it wasn't even about you so you fucking bear ALL the attention you're getting. You asked for this, now you got it. Don't whine.



CHANNICE: Warn me out of your blog ? are you getting mad ? :O have patience w my english . im still learning ^^
CHANNICE: dont wanna entertain monkeys like us , never mind (: dont reply then . if you reply , arent you entertaining us already ???

No, I'm not getting mad. Now see Channice, after all this while, you have yet to hit me in a place where it hurts, so why would I get mad? All you've been doing is just prove both my statements true, you're a dumb slut and you type like a chimpanzee on crack.

I won't entertain you if you have nothing intelligent to say. But now that you've explained the "bestfriend" story I just had to reply it. If all your retorts were similar to your two tags above, then I may or may not choose to continue pwning and humiliating you.



CHANNICE: Are you my brain or something? Cos i can tell you I DO NOT HAVE MOTIVE when i FIRST met him . is slowly , gradually , knowing him , i LIKE him .
CHANNICE: Go and ask Junhui if i ever encouraged him NOT to break with Jiayi .
CHANNICE: who's th one NOT leaving a 15year old girl alone ? How did you get in contact with Jiayi in th first place ?
CHANNICE: You USED her to get all this shit info to BOMB us , isn't it USING her?

A gradual thing eh? Fair enough. That's perfectly normal and very possible. But this doesn't absolve you from the fact that you flirted with him even though you already know he's attached.

"Go and ask Junhui if i ever encouraged him NOT to break with Jiayi ."

You do know that this sentence is a positive sentence? In proper English, your sentence would be, "Go on and ask Jun Hui if I have ever encouraged him NOT to break up with Jia Yi." Here's another English Lesson for you.

In this case, the opposite of "have ever" is "have always" and the opposite of "NOT" is pretty obvious. So what your sentence really means is "Go on and ask Jun Hui if I have always encouraged him to break up with Jia Yi." In the English Language, a double negative forms a positive. Your double negative being "have ever" and "NOT". No wonder I found your sentence weird when I first saw it.

And FYI, you just started talking about her situation with Jun Hui again. So really, you're not leaving her alone. I didn't ask her anything about her and Jun Hui after she told me to let it be. That's called being gracious and leaving the real victim alone. You, on the other hand, oh god. I already told you not to but you still went and brought it up. The topic is now about you and your stupidity and Amanda. No longer about Keigi. Keep up with the times, man.

To answer your question, I found her facebook through your facebook and contacted her via Facebook Private Message. We then exchanged contacts and there you have it.

Get your facts right.


I asked her for permission and told her if she thought I was nosy, she has the option of not telling me anything. She was gracious enough to give me information. I never used her. This was a fair and willing trade-off.

Your accusation was just downright rude to both Keigi and I and it's wrong.



Amanda: er... A isnt me.
Amanda: th post is not even about you . dont be so full of yourself and think that my whole world revolve around you . i dont even bother about you .

Really? The time stamp between A's tag and your blog post is reeeally close. Coincidental? I think not. You don't have a computer nor internet access. If A really wasn't you, your blog time stamp would be waaay different from A's tag's time stamp.

Well, you do have a lot of shit going around in your life, so it's completely understandable that whatever I'm doing doesn't matter to you. But see Amanda, if you didn't bother or care about me, you wouldn't be tagging here now would you? Tsk tsk tsk. Contradictory.



Oh: so Amanda really had sex? I thought it was just a rumour. Guess its true. A Christian indeed, hah.

No, trust me it's not a rumor. Chances are, most of the rumors you hear about her are actually true.



flammez: not my common used internet name, but bravo for your blog post. And what happened here does not only just meant them, but the whole generation is degrading to their standard. So thus, may there be a..
flammez: way to isolate those corrupted personnels from our future innocent children. Bless them all *I am not a christian in any chance*
flammez: *pardon me for my repeated tag due to slow internet processing* And no worries about them hacking your accounts, I will personally ensure it would be return to you, by myself or my administer friends.

Thank you and indeed. I hope there will be a way to isolate the one who choose not to use their brains from the ones that actually do.

Haha, it's alright and I'm not particularly afraid of them hacking it. Firstly, they don't have the knowledge or intelligence to, secondly, I know how to get back my stuff and get back at them myself. Interesting, you do coding?



Good Anon: Dumbasses

Indeed.



Sick & tired of this: STOP. IT. ALREADY. Ohmygod, you don't get sick of this don't ya. You know, people shooting you at least don't say directly. While you on the contrary want to shoot people with their real names?

Hi Sharlyn. Who the hell are you to ask me to stop? You're not my maker, you didn't breathe life into me, you don't own me, therefore you have no right to me. And yes, I don't get sick of it. Goddammit, can't you read? I said I feed off this kind of drama.

What do you mean people shooting me at least don't say it directly? You got a problem with me, come out and fucking say it with pride. Show your identity, show who you are, I'll slam you all the same. It is but only courtesy that you show your opponent who you are and not cower behind false names and throw sticks at your opponents.

Fact: The whole name thing. Read again to see who exactly started a whole drama about it. They wanted my real name and called me a nameless dog who's too ashamed of her real name. So there. You're another dumbfuck that doesn't understand English.



Sick & tired of this: What you should keep private and confidential, you should. No matter how much you hate that person. That's a person's basic right. Would you like it if someone's putting out all ur history for the
Sick & tired of this: whole wide world to see? I

Wrong. That isn't obligatory. It all depends on the individual's sense of loyalty and unfortunately my loyalty is only true till you fucking mess with me. You know this. You know how nice I've been to Amanda, you've seen how well I treated her, you were fucking there and you know I would do anything for her. You know this. Don't even think about denying it.

This whole incident is here because I, as her best friend then, finally had enough with the way she's been acting. I can't swallow her slutty behavior like you can. I was utterly disappointed in her. AND YOU CAN EVEN ENCOURAGE HER ON. Have you no shame, Sharlyn?

Fact: My whole damn history is put up for the whole damn world to see. Why the hell do you think I have a total of 10 different blogs, including this one? Why the hell do you think I revived my blog 6 times? I am ashamed of my past, as is everyone with theirs, but if I don't face my past and learn to let go of it, I can never move forward to the future. My past is put up on blogs because this is my way of letting go. My emotions, my pain, everything, flows from my heart to the tip of my fingers, to my blogs. That's how I let go.

As with Channice and her little band of pea brains, your comment is just downright stupid and useless.



Channice: to sick&tired , who are you ? -_- and who are you referring to? gawd. -_-
Sick & tired of this: Channice, not you. To JASMINE.
Channice: Dont scold her la. She's like this -_-

Are you dumb or dumb? == Why are you talking like you've known me for years? Have you finally have nothing else to say? Tsk tsk tsk.



Tesun: Red, i got a part time job le~ pay nt v high n only a few days a week, but i still think its a gd thing.

OOO! That's good! A little late but CONGRATS!



Stessen: WAH! 0.0 I haven't update myself for sometime... Ur post are.. WOOOO! LOL... Hi Hi! 0.0 Its kinda hard to tell if ya doing well or not... ={ so... talk to ya soon...

Haha, I'm fine, no worries. Haven't been better. Catch up with you soon okay? Let's do lunch sometime.

...when I finally have my pay. That's very important.



Tesun: Red, must watch otomen drama!!! I really liked tonomine and the final ep made me think tachibana is cute!!!

LOL okay, will do.



Now that I'm done with tags, let's move on to blog posts.



From Sharlyn's Blog:

[Sorry, I'm too damn lazy to take a screen shot and upload it here.]

People are fallible. You too, J.H.N are no exception. I'm fucking sick of you, and your stupid ways to antagonize people. I used to remember those days where you used to say "Nobody's perfect" but i'm wondering why you're acting like you're so perfect, like you're God, like you're the Right one and everyone else would be in the wrong. I guess you're "Nobody" that's why you think you're perfect. After i servered ties with you, i would still miss those days that we used to have. What i've seen past these days i don't think i'll miss it anymore because i believe you have lost your conscience.

Woo, big words. I'm perfect? Hell no. You misunderstand, I don't act like I'm perfect, I act like I'm superior. Why? Because I can. There is never a right or wrong in arguments, only who's better at debating. I'm a "nobody"? Dear girl, you're worse-off. You think you're somebody, talking like you actually have readers. What a load of bull. You know, you're just like how I used to be. I used to like to believe I was somebody 'cause I needed someone to listen to what I had to say, but deep down I knew I wasn't anyone. But I've made a small name for myself over the span of 4 years. I have people I don't know reading my blog, my life, with an average of 30 people coming here every single day.

I'm proud of it, I'm happy, I'm grateful that people want to hear what I have to say. And I am eternally grateful to them. When people want to hear my opinions, I become somebody to them. And that's more than enough for me.

So please girl, stop deceiving yourself, thinking that you're someone big. It's only gonna hurt more when you wake up.

Really? Awww man, how am I going to live without you missing the days we used to have? :'(

I've stopped reading your blog unless when necessary after we severed ties, why? Because its so full of poison ivy. People can get depressed while reading your blog, this is how much poison there is in your words. You can take it as a compliment, but only you yourself will feel that its good. Why do you love to bring people down? So that you will feel good about yourself when there's actually nothing good left about you?

Honey, I don't need a reader like you. You're too mentally immature to understand what the big girls are talking about. Poison ivy eh? Well, what the hell are you expecting from someone who calls herself RED? Were you expecting Little Miss Sunshine? Sorry to disappoint. In this cynical world, only the smart and witty can appreciate the words I spit. In this miserable place, in this wretched world, only stupid Christian dumbfucks like you get depressed over this shit.

Nothing good left about me? Well, then tell me, why do people still love me? Support me, encourage me? If there is no good left in me, why am I not locked up, in jail or in a straight-jacket in padded rooms? You're really asking for it, you know that. I only bring people down then the situation is such that that is the only way to vent my frustrations. It is human nature.

Why am i writing this post right now? Because your intended victim has been victimized by you for damn long and even thought alot of things are damn hurtful i told her not to rebutt. Because it'll just cause more childish rebuttals from you and i thought that you'll stop soon. But no, you continue antagonizing her. Call your ex best friend a "slut, whore" who do you think you are? Are you even in the position to comment or to condemn her actions? You're not God so stop pretending you are. Even if i hate someone to a very large extent i wouldn't call that person that. Because you might never know if you are refering to yourself. There's always this old saying that " if you point a finger at someone four fingers are pointing right back at you." get it girl.

Does she even have the courage to post whatever she had to say? Bear in mind, I still have the upper-hand in the whole situation. I can and will expose her when necessary. Childish rebuttals. Funny, coming from a childish person like you who's never lived life outside of Disney fantasies.

FACT: I would've stopped if Channice didn't blow the whole fucking thing up.

Are you even in the position to comment or condemn MY actions?

Human Right #18:
FREEDOM Of THOUGHT

Human Right #19:
FREEDOM Of EXPRESSION

You're nobody so stop pretending you are somebody. You're not me, you don't know the shit I go through, you don't know what goes through my head. We're very different individuals so fucking stop thinking everyone's like you.

And hi, Stupid, the real quote is, "If you point your finger at someone, remember there are 3 more pointing at you!" Get that right first, then we'll talk, a'ight?

Oh, and stop giving people English lessons too. We don't need it, or at least not from you. You didn't get 100% or even an A1 for your O'lvl so please, don't act like a professor and correct everyone's english. Look at where you are. Other people are having a proper life, rather than trying to replace Perez Hilton.

You just said people are fallible and I just admitted I'm not perfect.

Does a grade or a piece of paper define intelligence? You know Shar, you may have gotten a good grade in your 'O's but does it define you being intelligent? It just shows that you know how to study and studied hard. A lot of Singaporeans know how to do that and yet I take one good look at the whole lot of them and they're as dumb as fuck. Trigonometry? Calculus? Sure they know their textbook shit. What they don't know is life. Life doesn't come with a fucking textbook or manual and experience is a fucked up teacher. It gives you the test before giving you the lesson.

Here's another funfact, my scores sucked 'cause I couldn't be bothered to study. Does that make me stupid? No, that just means I'm fucking lazy. Read my whole blog again, talk to me in person again, tell me, do I sound like a dumbfuck like you?

Brilliant, you try to make a point about putting people down to feel good about oneself and here you just put me down to feel good and justify yourself. Win.

Shar, I took a break from studying and I found an alternative route to my future. I don't have to live my life like you normal fucks. I'm different, I got my own way. Talk to me when you're more successful than me in future, a'ight?

Besides, what should have been kept Private and Confidential should remain Private and Confidential no matter how much you hate a person. Because someone used to confide in you, it means that the person had trusted you before and so by putting someone's past on the net, dont you find youself quite shameful for doing so, for having to use such underhanded means just to get back at a person. You never think about the consequences of doing this don't you? Just imagine if it was reverse scenario where she was doing this to you instead. Oh, you won't imagine it because it just not you who is suffering so you don't give a fucking damn about the person's feelings! Oh yeah, i kinda thought about the consequence of posting this so i know i had it coming.

I've covered the whole P&C thing already.

You obviously never read my posts properly. I did say one thing I'm good at is thinking and guess what, I did think of the consequences but I still did it anyway. She doing this to me? Naw, she don't have the brains to. If it were to happen however, I would defend myself in every way possible. That's what you do in a debate. You defend your side and question your opponent's side.

You're right, I don't give a damn about you. Stop whining.

Disappointment can do a lot of shit to you. I've been disappointed all my life and I am extremely sensitive to disappointment. A Disney fucker like you will never understand it.

I have nothing else to say for now. I'm wasting my time in trying to get you to shut up which you just don't want to. So ohwell. Just some things that i wanna say.

You are wasting your time. So stop whining. This is between Amanda and me. Stop cutting in and making things worse than they already are. It was because of YOU that my relationship soured in the first place. Trying to act like the saint? Think again, dumbChristianfuck.

You don't love us by saying alot of hurtful and nonsensical things in your blog, shooting your friends. Nor we love you now because, like i've said, your blog is full of poison ivy, i believe that applies to you as well. A lot of things has happened until its so bloody messed up, bye honeybabes. Rest in peace. The world is ending.

Dumbfuck, I loveD Amanda. You? Not even once. So you can fuck off now.



Seriously Shar, just grow up and go away. People can see you were the one that made things worse the first time. Instead of helping Amanda and I in reconciling with each other, you deepened the wound. That first time, that was the first time Amanda and I ever had such a huge argument and it was all because of you. And there is only one thing I can deduce from that.

Were you jealous of us back then? Were you jealous that I was closer to Amanda than you'll ever be? Were you jealous that I clicked with her on a deeper level back then than you can ever hope to achieve? Tsk tsk tsk.

You can deny it, but this little worm will eat away at your conscience. One you claim to have.

Who's the real no good one now?





Right, I'm done slamming the bitchez. My next post will be about what happened during my one-week absence from the face of the internet. Although, I'm wondering if I should hold it off for another time.

We'll see.

I'm working tomorrow, I need my rest now. Good night to whoever's reading this.