Gasoline

I don't hold my breath
And I don't hold my tongue
And I know that you know that I don't back down
To no one

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Hi. Missed me?

Hah, most of you guys probably forgot me already. I mean c'mon, I haven't posted in 2 weeks. I haven't been very active reason being, I got lazy and now that I have a boyfriend to complain and whine to, I no longer really need this blog. But more towards the fact that I'm lazy. Then after a while, I decided that once Rei was done reviving his blog, I would revive mine. And we all know that that's going to take one hell of a long time. But hey, no rush, right?

But tonight, I decided to write about everything, under the request of Heidi. And she was really sweet about it. She just said, "just love to read your blog post." and that's just a simple phrase but idk, it's kinda sweet. So here I am.

It's going to be a long read. And I am very harsh with my words. Trust me, I didn't hold my tongue this time.



Remember how in the May 3rd post, I wrote:

You know, something else has happened very very recently but I don't want to talk about it.

I'm going to explain it all right now.

May 1st, Saturday, 21:01pm.

I received a message from Amanda.

Amanda: OmgOmgOmgOmgOmg .

Red: What what?

Amanda: Luffy asked me to be his fling !

Red: I would support you but he has a GIRLFRIEND.

Amanda: He said he's irritated with keigi at times , so he's looking for a fling . O.o then he said someone who's more mature and understanding than her . And before that , we were out entire day , with him carrying my bag , seated beside me and walking beside me all day . And then he specially sent me to th MRT just to ask me to be his fling . Omg , I'm melted , babe .

Red: Ask him first would he like it if keigi did the same. Cheating, sorry I meant FLINGING, behind his back.

Amanda: Hahaha , yeah . True . True . But . Ah . Messed up . I decided to give it a miss . I want him . But I want him all mine .

Red: Good girl. Don't lower your own value like that by flinging every guy you meet.

Amanda: Haha . Mm hmm .

Amanda: I WANT A BOYFR ! OMG .

Red: Find one. But don't take someone else's away.

Amanda: I know . I'm just whining .

Red: Go find some hook up parties or something? Ask a friend intro you some guys?

Amanda: Nah . No to both ideas . Party guys are jerks . Friend's introduce is awkward like matchmake . Omg . Aaron said he's free for me . So cute .

Red: Go for aaron?

Amanda: I don't go for playboys anymore , c'mon .

Red: To be honest, before you think about getting a boyfriend, you need to change yourself a little. Manda, you're a player too. Stop flinging every guy you meet, don't even think about it. Regardless whether the guy treats you well during the relationship or not you still shouldn't fling while in a relationship. Don't tell the guy first thing that you will cheat on him first chance you get, that will only make him feel like giving up before trying. As your best friend, i'll be honest with my words. Manda, you're not valuing yourself. [I actually wanted to write, "Manda, you're a slut." here but I thought, "Mmm.. No. Too much."] You're making yourself cheap and easy by giving guys the wrong signal. That's the last thing i want you to do. Instead of always thinking that it's the guy's fault, try thinking what you've done wrong which ultimately led to the inevitable end of your short insecure relationships.

Amanda: I dump guys . I don't get dumped . And you know , every girl wants to be pampered . If th jerk can't do it , he's gotta be prepared for it . I don't care whose fault it is because it takes two hands to clap . If i'm at fault , he's going to hell . Done . I'm in th worse mood ever today , and before anything happens to you and me again , I'm going to bed .

Red: Wrong use of phrase, 'It takes two hands to clap.' Good night.

Amanda: Ugh . Babe ! Sigh . Night .

Alright kids, time for a little English lesson.

The very famous quote, "It takes two hands to clap." does not mean that if you're "at fault, he's going to hell." It means both parties should do their part in a relationship. If the relationship fails, both parties are equally at fault.

Another example would be this:

I used to wait for people to ask me out, I'd always thought that if people wanted you to be their friend, they should make an effort to ask you out, but recent events makes me do the otherwise. As the boredom creeps in, the thought of leaving my house becomes adhesive. Why not just ask people out instead of sitting around waiting? You never know what wonderful things will happen if you don’t do so. I remembered once a teacher told me this "it takes two hands to clap", no matter whichever relationship you involved, it takes both side to make things work, isn't it?

-Benjamin Low
http://b-e-n-n.blogspot.com/

I hope that short English lesson helped. Now, moving on.

Amanda, here's what I really have to say about this:

Amanda, you're not a player, you're a whore. A slut and I am gravely disappointed in you. Four-timing Max was already overboard but now you just had to go and snatch someone's boyfriend away from some poor girl too? And another fact Amanda, YOU'RE the one always getting dumped. Out of your 29 ex-boyfriends, how many of them were the ones who dumped you? Almost all the guys that you "loved" the most. You're not making yourself cheap and easy, you already are. And your chaotic, dramatic, short, painful and insecure relationships are like that all because of you. It's not the guy's fault, good lord, no. It's your own fault. And you always pin it on the guys. The guys aren't the jackasses, you're the bitch.

Oh and if you think you were kinda cool when you typed, "If I'm at fault, he's going to hell."? Hell no. You looked fuck stupid. You were my bestfriend and you weren't in the most fantastic of moods so I didn't tell you. But damn, that was one of the most stupidest things I've ever heard.



May 3rd, Monday, 01:05am.

Amanda: He broke up with keigi . He told channice to tell me to wait for him for two months . He wanna make me his last .

Red: You just met this guy a few days ago and he's talking about marrying you? And what's the reason he broke up with her?

Amanda: No . Not marriage la ! His last girlfr for th year maybe . He faded . No . They both faded .
[I checked. "They both faded." was a lie. Keigi still loved Luffy.]

Red: Normally when people say 'last' it means marriage. As long as you weren't the reason. So what's the 2 months for? Faith probably hates you right now.
[Faith is another slut who likes Luffy too. And she openly flirted with him while he was still together with Keigi.]

Amanda: Faith patched with shan and is trying to matchmake us . He doesn't want keigi to think it's cause of me they broke .

Red: What the fuck? You were the reason?

Amanda: No I wasn't but if we get together anytime now , it'll look like it is.
[Nice try Amanda. Getting together 3 days after their break up.]

Red: But if both their feelings faded, it shouldn't be a problem to get together with him.

Amanda: Nah . I avoid as much gossips as I can . I still have to settle Ian .
[Ian was her then fling. A little funfact: She doesn't like Ian at all, and he's her junior.]

Red: So much for embracing singlehood. Don't fling this time round.

Amanda: Haha . I'm still single though .

Red: You were never single. Not once. You were always with someone else. I seriously wonder how you're gonna get married and settle down without cheating on your husband.

Amanda: I wasn't attached at all . My life surrounds guys doesn't mean I'm attached . And it doesn't mean I'm a whore . And you don't have to worry about my marriage cause i'll only marry a guy who's rich enough for me . Who'd wanna betray a man rich with money and love .

Red: You weren't attached but you definitely weren't alone. And money and love don't go hand in hand.

Amanda: It'll be . If it doesn't , why th fuck would I wanna get married .

Amanda: Th word not attached defines single anyway . And hello , do we have to argue every night ?

Red: You forget you don't have the luxury of time.
[She had her fortune told a few years back, it said if she didn't get married by a certain age, something really bad would happen or she'll probably never get married.]

Amanda: I don't care even if it costs my life . It's worth nothing anyway . I've MY OWN WAY of living my life . Tyvm for your concern , babe .

Red: So be it. I wish you happiness with luffy.

Amanda: Not that soon but thank you .

Amanda, you may not have been the entire reason they broke up, but you were definitely one of the main factors. I dare you to deny that. "They both faded."? Don't make me laugh. I was on the phone with the exgirlfriend, aka KEIGI aka Jia Yi last night, for 1 hour 15 minutes. She told me every single detail. They both faded? Bullshit. She still loved him. You may not have been attached but you were always with some guy. FLINGING.

Believe me now? Whore.

Also, there is absolutely no man on the face of this planet, that is rich in both money and love. Rich in money, sure, can you handle his many mistresses? Rich in love, no problem, can you handle him being poor? Even if there is a guy like this out there, he's probably a very rare endangered species. What makes you think, a slut like you would be deserving of this guy? Good luck finding a guy like that. From the looks of it, you'll probably never get married in the next 15 lifetimes.

Your life is worthless because you made it that way, cheap whore. You have a brain, think a little for christ's sakes.

Miscellaneous stuff happened in between and they're not important so I'm gonna skip ahead. You know what, I'll just dedicate this whole post to the whole Amanda thing.



May 10th, Monday, Late Night.

Alphonso accepted Amanda as a friend on facebook and I was rather disgusted at that. Bitch, you don't know him, you've never met him, you've never even talked to him. What the hell did you add him for? There is an unspoken rule that you don't mess around with your girlfriend's ex-boyfriends. If you want to do anything, get their permission first. So what in the hell are you doing? Were you looking for a new fling partner? Tsk tsk tsk.

May 11th, Tuesday, Evening.

Red: Rei booked the pit already. We have it from 5 onwards. How much do you need for catering? There won't be a lot of people most likely.

Amanda: I don't know . I'm leaving it to you . I'm not even sure if I'll be going but I'm still gonna pay half . Take it as a gift to hei . I'll forward you the caterer's number .

Red: Before I say anything, can I know why you're doing this?
[I initially wanted to start this message with "What the fuck." I'm nice enough to hear her pathetic excuses out before slamming her.]

Amanda: I'm too packed now . There's school , there's camp , there's church , and there's luffy . I'm not sure if I can squeeze time on that day . So I hand it to you to prepare just in case something crops up that day .

Red: That's your pathetic excuse? We planned this weeks ago and now you're telling me you have no time for heidi's small birthday celebration? You made me put my boyfriend in a terribly spot, you made me argue with him over this shit and now you're telling me you might not be free on saturday 'cause you'll be too busy hanging out with other people and your boyfriend?

Amanda: I'm still paying for it you know ?

Red: So? We made plans for this already. We've made plans for this since april. And now you're putting your recently appointed schedules over this one that's been there for weeks already? What now you have fluffy, friends aren't important anymore huh?

Amanda: He's not fluffy . So ? It's not the fact that friends aren't important . Friends are . True friends are . True friends that doesn't attitude you everytime you text her out of the blue . Hmm . And at least I'm paying for the party . It's the thought that count . It's not like I'm running missing . I just said I don't know if I can make it . There's still a might what . -.-

Amanda: And besides , be grateful I'm still paying . I could choose to totally ignore your text , and run mia if I really didn't wanna care about you two or the party .

Red: Do you ever stop to wonder why your ex-bestfriend would this kind of shit to you, do you ever stop to wonder why so many people hate you? Oh that's right. I forgot, you're always in the right. Oh well. Hey at least you still have fluffy, your wife, and your darling ham, sorry typo, *your darling HAN.

Thought that counts? Bullshit. Be grateful? Are you trying to make me laugh? Hello, back then at least I still repaid my debts and my portion of the whole thing. You know what, forget it. We don't need you. Run mia for all I care.

From here on out, the rest is censored. You wanna know, you ask me directly. Why? 'Cause Rei taught me, "You break the rules, you don't make evidence of it." or something along the lines of that.

First of all, Amanda, fuck you. I am absolutely disgusted that now that you have Fluffy, you forget your friends. The rest, I've already explained clearly. I think you're absolutely disgusting. Right down to the core. In a normal person's dictionary, it's Friends before Love. In your dictionary, it's Flings before Friends. Smart.

And here's a little bonus for all you readers. You know you like the drama.

At Amanda's tagboard:

Me: u no shame uh 3 daes aft e brk upp u stead wif e guyy. wad lan is tis

Luffy: eh u confirm is 3day or not? knn

aki-me: I guess you`re just like THOSE frequent psb huh ? Hi . First, it`s not three days, it`s a month .

aki-me: Second , scold me all you want , I accept it all . I`m shameful , but you`re worse because you must have been so ashamed of yourself you dare not put your name down . How many times do I have to tell

aki-me: you FREQUENT PSBs that parents give you names for a reason ?

;Natsume - Me: did i hear a dog barking ? Stray dogs in fact , cos stray dogs dont have names one :o never get facts right only anyhow bark . Indeed like a straydog .

me: u cnfm 1 mth bo? ppl brk up on 2may ur stead on 5may, nt 3 daes den is wad

aki: uh huh , so THAT was what you meant , i assume you have some language misuse or something ? you said is i break 3 days later then stead . -.- LOL , it doesn't matter how long you've been single after

aki: th previous , it's about th relationship

aki: and please , me , use your name , you're not given a name by parents and God for nothing

aki: -nats , yeah , first dumb pperson to spam her tagboard . ilyt . and ignore psbs w/o name . -darling , iloveyoulots!

Jasmine: I knew it. You really failed your English. I said, "e brk upp" and obviously, I would be meaning the break up between Jun Hui [Luffy] and Jia Yi [Keigi]. Now why on earth would I be referring to your break up with

Jasmine: Max, 1 month ago? That's in the past already, time to live in the present babe. I find it extremely ironic, 'cause I remember you telling me that Jun Hui said he would break up with Jia Yi and he

Jasmine: asked you to wait for him for 2 months 'cause he didn't want to make it look like you're the cause, the reason. And yet 3 days later, you're with him. Slut jiu shi slut la hor :) BTW, terribly sorry

Jasmine: for always replying so late. I had to do my research first before stating my claims. I've done my research, I know more about Jun Hui than you do now, Amanda. All the bad stuff at least. And well, let

Jasmine: me just say, you're going to regret being serious with him. Jun Hui, if you see this and you're pissed off, prove me wrong then.

Jasmine: OH and regarding the whole name thing, I'm tagging with my real name right now. Not as Red but as Jasmine, my real name. And it's ironic you guys say that I'm some nameless stray dog and that I'm too

Jasmine: ashamed of my own name to tag with it and all that shit. Well girls, you're not tagging with your real names too. Doesn't that kinda makes you nameless stray dogs that are too ashamed of their real

Jasmine: names as well? Kindly THINK before shooting someone like that. I have never come across anyone stupid enough to allow their opponent to pick apart their words and use it against them. You have a brain

Jasmine: for a reason. Kindly use it, sluts. :)

Jasmine: Oh and I'd really love to see how long the both of you will last together :D

Aki aka Amanda, Natsume aka Faith aka Channice, you just got pwned. Big time.



I rest my case. This is to be updated. Goddamn, this is the first time I've ever called someone a whore/slut/cheap and actually mean it with all my heart.

A'ight, it's 5 in the morning now, I should get some shut eye. I got lots to prepare for Heidi's Bbq party later during the evening.

Good morning and good night to whoever's reading this.

I got two faces and both of them are pretty disturbing.